finally see baby after his first book in after posting.
a week was like hell for him. i felt that.it was hell for me as well.
so many emotions inside him.
struggling to stay strong cause i asked him to do so.
breaking down from inside him, emotionally.
finding ways to grab hold to the very last hope.
it hurts to see him this way.
i cant do anything.

hugging him, kissing him, feeling how he feels and unable to do anything. i really dk how am i gona take it.
he hides, he smile, he escapes, trying to get rid of it.
will it really work?
feels so helpless and hopeless

adding on to baby's issue, my studies.
i simply cant get things right.
dance is getting busy recently.
idk whether i can take it or not, my negativeness is gona drown me.
i really hope that all this can change me to a more positive person.
but how?
baby's suffering, stuck with studies, my inferiority.