pool with amanda,her bf and jas.
had great time .
although th lunch thingy was kinda messy.make me feel lik erupting. but it was fine in the end.
was super hyper at first. maybe coz gt " new person" or maybe jus tat i very long nvr go out alr.
the end of th day bit sian. coz needa go home alr. feels sad somehow.

kinda quarrel with baby abit. shockingly over amanda bf stuff. bt was fine in the end. talking to amanda on msn now makes me feel how much i actually miss my dear. makes me feel lik crying somehow.

how i wished u were by my side. it will be great.
tons of homework undone.
im stress. ~.~ but i really dk how to do. kinda start worrying for my A's.
im 18 tis yr. wad had i achieved. can say nothing at all.
feel tat im a failure.
the future is still the same uncertain to me. no goals no nothing
what i feel is th whole chunk of negativity in me, growing each day.
once in a while it's gone. but it'll come back. perhaps if u were here it will be slightly better. idk. i dont wanna think about anything. my head is hurting =(

time for bed i guess.
Baby, where's my bed time story.